I've been bad....

really, I have.  I've been a bad blogger.  I've been a bad runner.  I've been bad at a lot of things. 

The past 2 weeks have been overwhelming,  to say the least.  Some of the highlights:

- transmission went on my van. (this is a long saga that involved a lot of money and also included a flat tire and a longish road trip with screaming children)
- baby's first ear illness (okay so it was just an ear infection no big thing but still....)
- cell phone broke (still in the process of sorting that one out)
- busy at work. extra shifts. (and lots of frustration there) 

All of those things combined to make for a very busy, very frustrating and very UNMOTIVATED week (or 2)

Through the whole car fiasco I managed to (kinda) keep from freaking out and although I didn't really make it to the gym I still got my runs in.  But last week with the sick baby, working overtime and I think the stress of the previous week catching up to me I only ran twice.

This week.  nothing. nada. big fat goose egg.  I worked an extra 5 or 6 hours on Tuesday, plus monday was halloween.  but dammit- I don't feel like running.  or spinning. or anything.  The baby is better but he is all over the place and is non stop all day.  I can barely get the house picked up and get a load of laundry thrown in.

 People ask me how I manage to get time to workout and run as much as I do and my answer is usually that my house is a mess. Then I laugh, ha ha ha...but really it is.  But mostly its because I make it a priority- of course the kids are the number one and work number 2  but getting to the gym or running is like number 3 or 4.   But the past 2 weeks it got bumped way, way, way down on the list.  I know that its normal for that to happen.  I know things are going to come up but it still makes me feel like a failure.   

In an effort to turn things around, I got new running shoes yesterday. It will be my first time running in a neutral shoe instead of a stability shoe.  This week is pretty much shot since tomorrow is back to work again but I'm going to try to do a short run today sometime and <barring any more catastrophes> hop back on the wagon next week. 

1 month until my come back race!!! 

my schedule has left the building

Sometimes its just hard to keep to a schedule no matter how hard you try. 

The past 2 weeks I was pretty on it as far as my workouts go.  I had a 15 mile week and then a 16 mile week. Plus spin classes and yoga.  I even managed to get caught up on laundry and kinda straighten up the house. kinda.

This week....not so much.  Mondays are hard because I am coming off a stretch of 3 12 hour shifts.  My nurse friends all know that 3 12's in a row is rough.  Especially if you have 3 busy shifts.  I just wasn't feeling it on Monday.  I did get up and go to spin but I didn't run.  I got up and did track on Tuesday and had a good morning.  Ran with a friend who is faster and I was trying to keep up (I did a pretty good job of it until the end!) then I got a call from work asking for help so I went in and worked 10-7.  No yoga.  Yesterday I was trying to catch up on housework and didn't go to spin.  I managed to get in a quick run last night.  It was pretty awesome.  I only did 3.2 but I felt fast and it felt pretty easy.  I didn't wear my Garmin (might be why it felt so fast) so we will never know but I'm just gonna say it was a PR! 

That brings us to today.  I picked up extra time at work but I'm 'on-call' so I am still at home but have to be ready to go in.   I have a sick 7 year old at home plus the baby.  (Hubby stayed home in case I get called in) I think I should be able to get a long run in this evening but still- thats at least 3 missed workouts this week.  not good. 

There is a bright side.  My 3 miles last night felt really easy.  Amazing how the shorter distances are cake once you start doing longer distances.  And even though it hasn't been going the way I want it to I've still gotten workouts in.  If I can get a longish run in today then my mileage isn't totally shot for the week. 

Next week will be better.  I hope. 

Anyone else having trouble saying no to Halloween candy??  Those mini snickers are really getting me.  No wonder I haven't lost any weight in 3 weeks! 

Randomness

No cohesive post today.  Just some random babbling.

 - I had to invest in a spibelt because I need to be able to carry my phone with me on a long run. I really like it.  It stretches to hold what you need and doesn't jiggle.   I also have been trying to be really good about wearing my road ID.  If you are a runner you should have a road ID. 

- I like the honey stingers gels.  Took them with me on my long run last week and definitely needed them by mile 5.  What do you use on your long runs?  I also have the Hammer Fizz for my water bottle.  Got talked into that one instead of the Nuun I went to buy because it doesn't have any artificial sweetners.  Think I'm still gonna try the Nuun but the fizz is okay. 

- I think its about time for new running shoes.  How often do you change your running shoes? 

- I have been dropping weight during the week and gaining on the weekends when I work.  I'm not eating very good when I am at work.  I need to work on that.  Apparently running and breastfeeding will only get me so far.

-In about 10lbs I think I will be able to fit pre-pregnancy clothes.  You would think that would be incentive enough to watch what I put in my mouth but sadly it is not.  But there has been lots of yummy cake around lately and I like cake.

-My right quad is sore from running Monday night and then again Tuesday morning.  I really need to run in the morning NOT evening.

-I just finished breakfast and I'm already thinking about what I am going to eat for lunch.  What should I eat for lunch? 

- I need a new fall playlist.  What are you listening to?? 

-last week I logged 15 miles. This week should be 15 or 16.  I feel like a runner again. Wish I looked like a runner.

-I ran out of deodorant. I've been using my husbands.  Guess I should go buy my own before Friday so I don't go to work smelling like a man.

-You should answer some of the questions I asked.